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W55G Chalet!!

2009-10-05T07:14:00.001-07:00

Update.. On w55G chalet.. just got the pictures from pris today.... had so much fun during the chalet.. hehe.. meet pris on 29 sep at bout 12 plus.. took bus down.. then change to train.. haha.. needa chack in at 2.30pm.. since none of our classmate are there yet.. we started playing.. haha.. we change HP sia.. haha... pris wif new sony phone.. haha i change to LG phone

we light the fire starter.. since there is nothing to do..
BBQ time.. haha.. when everyone got here.. we start wif BBQ..

nice picture by pris..

FOOD.. haha..

Pris, me and clara..

Reb on top of clara...

Me and Qi hui..

Pose outside the room.. haha.. by pris, reb, clara and shi

We had a game of taboo.. haha.. team 1.. monessa, azizul and udaiya

team 2, me, pris and jeremy..

second day.. went to the park and had games.. FOOTBALL.. haha.. here group photo..

here are all the girls that are there on the second day..

we had a ride on the ferris wheel.. haha.. all ten of us.. i guess..

here pris and jeremy..

me and pris..

another group of girls.. haha.. the ten of us is being split up to 3 different groups..

here is a group photo after the ride.. ^^
here are the girls ^^

here are the boys ^^

after the ride, we sent clara to the bus stop.. haha took it on the way.. the view of the ferris wheel is damn nice ^^

went nite cycling.. haha..

group picture again..

haha.. that the end of the chalet.. hehe.. had so much fun on that day.. wish to have it again... haha.. ^^

P.S DEVA updated the blog.. haha ^^

August 1 and 2

2009-08-11T04:00:00.000-07:00

Moo Bd celebration

went out to to celebrate moo BD wif deva. hehe, had so much fun that day. i took a long time before blogging the picture.

Moo looking at her present..

Had some fun at the beach by doing jump shoot.. took by DEVA

Deva and moo playing sand.. hehe.. they wan to bulit sandcastle..

dog.. hehe.. saw it when we were going to wash up..

hehe.. took it on the train while going back.. hehe

Deva angry with moo.. hehe..

OMG.. they are angry with each other..

moo tired.. going to sleep soon.. haha..

Grandma BD celebration

after going celebrating moo BD, the next day is grandma BD.. went to celebrate with her and my family at peach gradan.. hehe.. had lot of fun.

Family Photo.. not everyone is in there.. hehe.. still got my dad, mum, sis not there.. still got my uncle.. haha.. family too big liao.. hehe..

that all. hehe.. got too many pictures to put liao.. haha.. it was fun for that 2 days. hehe.. had so much fun.. hehe.. and enjoy myself too.. haha.. hope that everyone is happy that day.. haha..

went K wif friend

2009-07-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

today went K wif classmate.. there's doreen, qi hui, kah chan, jo and ileane.. hehe
had so much fun lor.. we took lots picute too.. heehee..
want to go there again sia.. hehe..

oh ya.. this sat going to celebrate moomoo bd hehe.. so angry with that lq lor..
wth.. wan to plan the celebration and nw dun wan to go.. wth.. so mad sia..
dun wan to talk bout her liao..
hope moomoo enjoy herself on that day too.. hehe..
it been a long time since we went out together sia..
too bad.. onli got the three of us..
nv mind still can have fun.. hehe..

gonna post that day picture and today picture another day..
kind of tired liao lor..
came back from K bout 8 plus..
done RJ and stuff.. about 9 plus..
then nw here blogging..
but i really have a happy time today..
it has been a long time since i am this happy..

20 july 2009

2009-07-20T07:45:00.001-07:00

Just came back from grandma birthday celebration.. hehe.. got pizza to eat sia.. hehe.. when i was back.. was looking through the pictures that i took wif my friends..

a lot of thoughts just surface out.. there's bad and good thoughts.. hehe.. didn realise that i had so much fun with them last year.. there deva birthday celebration, LQ one too.. and moo one.. hehe.. expect for jing.. rmb that time got competition.. thus didn celebrate.. hehe..

going to celebrate moo bd next sat.. hehe.. going to ECP.. then cooking some food for her.. as a gift.. hehe..

really happy that i know them.. had a lot of good and bad memories.. had all these thoughts just because i looked at those pictures.. hehe..

that all.. going to post moo bd pic soon.. hehe..

3 July

2009-07-03T05:01:00.000-07:00

I was on LOA nw.. for the 4 th day liao.. i guess.. not too sure.. will be back to sch next tuesday.. ^^.. kind of boring staying at hm thee whole time.. hehe.. might be meeting Qi lian that day too.. to help her on her pp.. hehe.. she is one of my close friend whom i chat wif almost everyday.. love chatting wif her.. can tell her bout my problem lor.. and she wouldn tell ppl.. so scared of betryal.. had enough of it too.. >.<

1 july 2009

first day of LOA. hehe.. that day was damn lost.. dun even know wat to do.. luckly faci was there.. and she thought the whole class pon lesson.. in actual fact we got LOA, she dunno.. hehe.. then we started a class conv, not many ppl in there.. got a few.. >.<>.<>

2 july 2009

second day of LOA, the day was OMG.. too many things to do liao.. got PDT, PPT, WS, RJ, Essay, quiz, evaluation.. wow.. so many things >.<>

3 july 2009

third day of LOA, today was the worse day compared to the other 2 day ba.. cause today change faci.. got another faci took us.. she reponsed a bit slow so we just wait.. and sometime she dun responsed so dunno whether is she there anot.. heehee.. but she is a nice faci.. she go through group by group instead together as a class if not die sia.. cant even read like yesterday.. hehe.. ^^

that all that happened in the pass few days.. hehe.. too many things happened this week too.. tired liao.. hope that nothing will happened again before i cant take it anymore.. >.<>.<>

P.S ya hui, not in sch this week till 6 july.. will be back on 7 july.. so can go K next week or wat.. when u free then go lor.. haha.. then must see whether the rest free anot.. hehe.. see ya soon.. miss ya too..

Watch show wif classmate after sch

2009-06-25T06:20:00.000-07:00

today, watch movie with my classmate, pris, doreen, izza they all.. watch Transformer.. the show was great and worth watching.. i mean it.. hehe ^^

the class has been talking bout it since yesterday, then q and kani wanna watch it yesterday but no ticket thus they call us to catch it today.. so we went and me and pris drag a few ppl there.. hehe.. it was fun when everyone goes there together and catch a movie.. hehe..

me and doreen keep bullying pris from sch to cwp.. haahaa.. it was so fun lor.. hehe.. but it still nice to be this happy once in a while..

keep thinking bout whether to go back a not.. i feel like kind of waste time to go back lor.. cause i feel no point in going back.. during the camp shows it all lor.. so still thinking.. i wan to make a choice that i wouldn regret on.. but i seems so hard to make a choice.. >.<>

dunn wanna think liao.. hehe^^

that all will blog another day.. ^^

8 June 2009

2009-06-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

Kind of sian sia.. for the past few weeks like nothing to do sia.. but kind of busy wif my own stuff.. done my pp report writing and sumitted liao.. think this time did ok ba.. change the things and added new things.. i did most of the report writing during the camp.. at nite lah.. then tuesday there was a archery meeting.. didn go.. went out wif my family.. we went on a outing which is to the bird park.. it is kind of fun.. we did lots of things.. haha.. and took a lot of pic..

then went hm round 5 plus i guess.. then when reached cwp.. saw one of the archer in BK.. guess he didn go for the meeting ba.. guess the meeting also boring..

then today, what i did was to teach my sis.. her grades are not good so i must teach her.. but the whole day like nothing to do.. as i give her the stuff she do then i mark then teach her.. that all.. kind of sian ba.. haha.. >.<

but at least got something to do lor.. hehe.. next week sch start liao lor..>.<>.<

will post the camp photo another time ba.. kind of lazy sia.. =.= haha..

Archery Camp Day 2

2009-05-29T21:41:00.000-07:00

Nw in sch for archery camp.. kind of sian.. last nite slept at 4 plus going to 5am lor.. just cant get to bed.. then me, ya hui and nick went a side to talk.. talk about the committee.. nick was like kanna scolded like that lor.. every point that ya hui say is directed to him and the committee lor.. then after talking.. moo called me to go toilet wif her.. cause qing sleep like a log liao.. cant wake her up.. after company her we went to sleep at the stairs there.. we were suppose to sleep in the tent for the nite but then most of the seniors didn sleep lor.. just hung around wif ya hui, nick and nad..

then today, we were sleeping the whole time till 12 plus in the afternoon then lunch time.. as the juniors has their maintance workshop thus onli some seniors go wif them.. the rest stay at sport complex.. and most of them fall asleep.. inculding me.. was damn tired lor.. sleep less than an hour the pervious nite.. then get my sleep just nw.. hehe.. ^^

will post the picture for the camp another day.. the pictures are still in my camera..>.<

what to do nw???>.<

2009-05-28T05:10:00.000-07:00

really going crazy nw sia.. >.<

have to think bout whether should i go for the camp anot.. have the permission from parents that i can dun go.. i dunno sia.. haha, they have decided to go liao.. good.. at least if i didn go i wouldn feel guity..

anyway, today, lesson was fun.. its DNA.. tlking bout DNA isolation and stuff.. i guess.. cause not too sure bout it.. kind of forget wat i learnt during lesson.. recently, mermory also not that good.. >.< dunno why.. think too much?? hehe..
tml, got lab plus UT.. haiz.. havent study.. dun even noe bout the module at all lor.. should have ask faci for help.. haiz.. too late liao.. >.<>.<>

feel like putting some picture from mel.. recently dun feel that happy.. so thinking of putting the picture in to make myself feel better.. cause i have lots of fun there.. hehe ^^

this is a group photo.. but nat not in.. >.<
these two are my roommate.. siew hui and kas.. hehe..

the scenary is damn nice lor.. enjoy the view man.. plus the wind.. hehe ^^

that all.. another than find more picture to put in ba.. hehe ^^

27 may 2009

2009-05-27T05:26:00.000-07:00

Going to be holiday soon.. hehe.. this friday got archery camp.. dun whether should i go anot.. dun wan to last min change my mind sia.. cause told deva liao and the plan was made liao.. but i find it weird when i was wif deva and moo.. just when i was wif the both of them.. i felt that they like somehow hack care me like that.. like i was not there.. so i rather not see them lor..

haiz.. the ppl i asked, told me not to go.. >.<>.<>.<

today, lesson was fun.. had so much fun lor.. with the new team.. hehe.. >.<>.<

oh yeah.. still havent upload mel photos.. hehe.. haiz.. dunno when free ba.. nw still doing report for pp.. plus got mel ce talk thing.. haiz.. when i am free then blog the pic.. >.<>

10 may 2009

2009-05-10T03:32:00.000-07:00

I think that I will let this friendship break by itself.. and I will not do anything to it anymore liao.. it is like no matter wat I do the friendship will still break.. it happens lots of time liao.. dun feel like trusting any more.. the more I trust the more betrayl they will do to me.. it happens damn lots of time.. in primary sch, sec sch and nw.. it never stop.. nightmare never go away.. >.<

no matter wat.. i will not care bout this friendship for nw.. if it breaks just let it break ba.. if not in the end i might be the one who will suffer the most.. it happens too many times liao.. even if i do something to it.. they might not like it.. so wat the point.. it takes to hands to clap.. it apply to friendships too.. if one does not want the friendship to works.. no matter how much effort the other party puts in also no use.. it will still breaks..

i feel much better when i dun meet up with them.. at the least i dun need to think too much and dun need to see their attiude and stuff..

whether it ends or wat.. i dun really wan to know liao.. let it be this way ba.. at least both party feels better rather than all suffer.. this way is much more nicer rather than seeing each other attitude..

that all ba.. end it here liao.. the end.. >.<

thinking too much..

2009-05-07T03:38:00.000-07:00

went to sch wif them.. as usual.. today, got lab.. hehe it is fun.. >.<>

went back hm alone at first.. then on the way, rachel saw me.. hehe.. so sori.. i didn saw her.. then kind of shocked to see her beside me.. hehe >.<>

also think bout friends and stuff.. kind of dun trusted anyone since that day.. it is like since we agree to that thing liao.. then nw because of someone changed ur mind.. i really dun noe what u are thinking bout.. wow.. like that might as well dun talk at all.. and i really dun know how to maintain this friendship liao.. how i wish not to think bout it..

kind of dun wish to meet them for nw.. wish to be alone.. mayb only go sch wif hui ping ba.. or alone.. which i dun mind.. sometimes, i feel that i am the onli one maintaining a friendship.. it is like u guys also take me for granted.. when u guys are sad and stuff.. i will help u.. but when i need help, i cant find u guys.. ><>

i forgot my meeting wif kas today.. we were suppose to meet after sch to do the ppt sildes for the CE talk.. but it the end i forgot bout it.. totally.. recently, i keep forgetting things.. i dun noe why.. but just keep forgetting.. ><>

feeling down..

2009-05-04T06:30:00.000-07:00

went sch wif moo, deva and hui ping.. at first it was ok.. when jing join us she start talking bout archery.. telling us to "donate" the yellow shirt to the new coach.. haiz.. wt.. totally spoilt my mood for the whole day sia.. ><

then reply her in kind of rude manner.. ok for this i know it is my bad.. ><>

i miss the times i spent in melbourne.. no worries and stop thinking bout ARCHERY.. just enjoy my times there.. how i wish to go back again and forget bout all the trouble i got.. ><

for nw, my mood is damn bad.. so trying to PP report.. 2000 words.. have reach 2000 words for the report.. but i still havent finish writting.. still got 5 more parts to do.. OMG.. i feel that it is kind of too much words.. should i edit some part? arggg.. wat to do? >.<

post this just wanna find something for me to talk to.. >.<>.<

that all for the day ba.. doing report>.<

12 April 2009

2009-04-12T07:05:00.000-07:00

Went to party world yesterday.. went there bout 9 pm.. went wif my sis, bro, aunt, cousin and stuff.. hehe.. enjoy myself yesterday.. had been quite moody lately.. kind of not myself ba.. we sung a lot of songs.. hehe.. and play too.. everyone was so high.. hehe.. didn bring cam there.. if not can take pics.. hehe..

we leave party world at around 1 plus.. then went to our blk there and wait for my cousin to change her shoe.. while waiting.. the few of us sung too.. on our phone song and sing along.. not enough of singing from just nw.. hehe..^^ after that went to our aunt car and went to look for food.. hehe.. we went to eat.. near town area.. so fun.. hehe..

went hm around 3 plus going to 4am.. went to bad.. so tired.. then i didn wake up to feed my doggy this morning too.. sian.. my sis woke up to feed him.. haiz..

sch going to start liao.. going to be very sian liao.. i mean needa go back to training.. kind of dun really feel like going back but no choice.. needa talk to my mum about this liao.. see whether i can train outside sch and dun go back to the club.. but dun think it is possible lah.. just hope ba.. >.<

that all.. blog another day ba.. ^^ when i am feeling better..^^

Just came back from melbourne^^

2009-03-28T04:19:00.001-07:00

yesterday, just came back from melbourne.. kind of tired and have lots of fun there.. went there on the 18 march.. then came back on the 27 march.. we had so much fun there.. hehe.. ^^..

first day there, we did nothing much.. just check in to the hostel.. at first the room onli has me and siew hui.. then anne, cherine and kasturri came over.. then kasturri ask whether she could share room with us.. of course we will lor.. the room is like damn bug and it is enough to have one more person.. that when we 3 become quite close friends.. hehe.. then on the second day, we went to monash uni to see the sch and stuff.. before going there.. meet von and connie to pass them their things that i bought from singapore..

the third day, is when we went to the dinosaur cove there.. we didn did any digging that day cause just travel from place to place.. we shared the villa with reshmi, YH and cindy.. our rooms are quite big.. then the 4 boys shared 1 villa, then the other 4 girls shared another villa.. we had so much fun there too.. the last nite there.. we had lots of fun too.. we tooks lots of picture and stuff.. for that day, we sleep damn late.. cause me and my other 2 roommates always sleep very early de.. hehe.. ^^ need engry for the next day.. we also went to see the penguins, kola bears and emu and lots of animals.. they are so cute lor.. when went to see the penguins the weather was quite cold.. the wind is super cold lor.. and during the trip, i fell ill.. had fever, flu and keep coughing.. so terrible.. hehe.. but somehow got recover lah.. ^^ we stay at the villa for 4 days 3 nite.. then at nite the sky is full of star.. didn take a pic.. >.<

then had shopping on one of the day.. shop till i cant take it any more lor..

lucky she is there.. if not we cant find anyone to help us lor.. arron and yong chuen was there too.. that arron teach us.. and we clear our missunderstanding.. hehe..^^ the next day, we didn have the chance to present.. as we were kind of slow.. kind of happy.. but we had to do it on the last day of our stay.. which was yesterday morning.. >.<

we were so lucky to join the student for their formal dinner.. that day we had too much fun too.. every table will be able to have 2 glass of wine.. then we pass our to the other table.. but they had too much alcohol liao.. so we took back the wine.. and pass it to the students that stay at mannix college.. ^^

from this trip, i had learn lots of things.. and make lots of friends.. had so much fun wif them.. and lots of alcohol.. hehe.. ^^ didn really drink it.. kinda scared of it liao.. guess it is a good thing ba.. ^^ wish that all of us will get together soon and have more fun.. and dun shop too much liao.. hehe.. ^^

that all.. will post the pic another day.. kind of tired..

16 march 2009

2009-03-16T01:49:00.000-07:00

kinda happy.. hehe.. going to mel this wednesday.. hehe.. hope that it will be fun.. hehe..

Just finish packing the stuff.. i brought damn lots of things lor.. hiaz.. and also help aunt to bring somethings over for my cousin.. who are there.. hehe..

will be going to lots of place in mel.. but mostly going around the campus there.. hehe..

will buy somethings for u guys and my family.. hehe.. that all.. going to go out to buy somethings liao..

^^ will post the pictures and experience when i get back..

Will be flying to mel on the 18 march and will be back by 27 march.. Hope to see ya guys to pass u the things that i brought.. ^^

day out wif jing,qing and moo..^^

2009-03-05T04:58:00.001-08:00

today, went out wif jing,qing and moo.. went to east coast park.. when we are bout to reach it rains.. not heavy downpour.. then we went to have our lunch first before cycling around east coast.. have so much fun today.. lets the picture show how much fun we have today.. ^^

firstly, we meet at JE at 10 am before heading down to east coast.. we took some pictures on the train too.. ^^ and also kind of disturb jing too..

then we walk to the bus stop to take bus number 13.. ^.^

this pic was taken when we are at the underpass to get to east coast..

we have our lunch first and while eating we chit chat.. mostly on archery stuff..

after lunch, rent a bike and went cycling.. ^^

this pic was took when we saw this castle.. and we took quite a lot of weird and funny pictures too.. this look decent so i put it in..

then went to sit on the rock and enjoy the wind.. hee.. look at jing leg.. the colour different..

then jing started using the cam and when around taking pic.. ^^

look at qing hair.. hee..^^

this was done by qing and moo.. >.<

this was done by moo and jing..^^

this was done by jing.. ^^

we cycle from mac there till here.. the bedok jetty.. hehe.. and something happen when we took this pic.. u guys noe it.. dun need to say liao..

while cycling qing fell off from her bike.. and it was a vert bad fall.. so sori that you fell down.. ^^

jing was so happy then she wanted to climb over.. but in the end, she didn..^^
and moo was there emo.. >.<>

i dun noe when this pic was taken.. think me and jing was doing something.. ^^

this was the end of the day.. everyone was tired and qing almost lie down flat on the mat.. moo and jing having "leg spa".. ^^

guess whose handprint was this.. Hee..
it was jing one..

at the end of the day.. we pass the scapebook to qing.. inside contains pic which we took it from the archery camp, normal training , deva bd and Polite 2008.. hee.. and the scapebook contain most archer wishes for her.. and the three of us draw for her.. and dun noe what she thinks of it.. it's been a long time since we draw.. hee.. ^^

hope to go there again.. and qing dun fall down anymore.. ^^ let's plan it again and rmb that ah ma wants to go to the airport too.. let's find a date.. either before i go oversea or after i come back..

and moo if can go back for training liao lah.. rest enough liao le.. ^^

and qing if can contiune wif archery >.<>

see ya soon.. ^^

23 Feb 2009

2009-02-22T22:00:00.000-08:00

it been a long time since i blog.. not reeally too busy to blog.. but kind of lazy to blog.. Have not been going for training.. kinda sian to go back.. and dun feel like going back lor.. hehe.. i am quite used to not going back.. dun know why.. but i will try to go back and train ba.. haiz..

Oh ya.. Gd luck, jing.. for ur up comign competition.. hehe.. i will try to go and support u de.. must see how ba.. dun really feel like going.. see how when the time comes..

going on an oversea trip soon.. hope that it will be fun.. hehe.. will post the pictures when i get back..

we will have a outing on the 5 march.. hope that all of them will turn up.. didn call that much ppl to have a farewell party for qing.. hope that those i asked will turn up.. and hope that day will have lots of "fun".. hehe..

think that all liao ba.. blog another day.. kinda sian liao.. hehe..

Day out wif Moo..

2009-02-07T03:45:00.001-08:00

went to east coast wif moo.. on 3 feb ba.. if i dun rmb wrongly.. hehe.. that was suppose to go out wif jing.. we were suppose to go shooping at bugis.. that was the plan then cause of the work thing.. so we change the plan.. me and moo settle our job thing and went to east coast.. that day was fun.. think that was the onli day i didn think too much ba.. other days, my mind is full of thoughts and etc.. hope to find job asap.. so can dun.. hehe.. nw kinda sian lor.. today, did something that made me feel very guilty.. haiz.. but that over liao.. sori, girl.. cause of my action, the plan was change.. so sori.. enough of talking.. let the pics shows how happy we were when we are at east coast.. hehe..

first, we rent bike and have fun.. hehe

moo weird expression.. hehe.. think the weather too hot liao.. so she a bit.. hehe..

we took a rest by the beach and took this pic.. hehe..
oh no.. my feet are gone.. hehe..

hehe.. we burried each others feet under the sand.. hehe..

after that we went to play wif the sea water.. then we got up and our feets are like that..
after we return the bike.. moo decide to take a dip in the water.. hehe.. look how happy she was.. hehe..

after the dip.. this how she looks like.. hehe.. and she was that happy.. hehe..

that all.. hehe.. we had so much fun that day.. hope to go there again.. hehe.. girl.. sori, for wat happened today.. will try again another day ba.. if not.. that all.. hehe..

P.S. si yun, dun say i didn update liao hor.. hehe.. although took alot time to update.. hehe.. see ya soon.. hehe..

27 Jan 2009

2009-01-27T00:45:00.000-08:00

Today, is the second day of new year.. kinda sian.. nothing much to do.. anyway.. have lots of pic to post.. got about new years pic, pic wif some of my friends on the second last day of sch.. this year new year is much more boring and not fun at all.. it is just like in the past.. the process just keep repeting that all.. nothing worth talking about.. the most interesting thing is that both my brother birthday fall on the new year eve and the first day of new year..

my first brother birthday was on the new year eve.. we help him celebrate at my grandmother house which we was kinda boring.. then my second brother birthday was on the first day of new year.. we help him celebrate at my aunt place.. had choco cake on the frist day and had ice-cream cake on the second day.. OMG.. two cake in a roll.. there still left over lor.. haiz..

anyway, i am just bored so i came to blog about it.. dun really like new year.. kinda boring and they always do the same thing over and over again.. haiz..

post the pic when i have them ba.. hehe..

Should I or not?

2009-01-07T04:09:00.000-08:00

Today, went to cwp with deva.. talk to her.. she was like against my decision.. she dun wan me to regret my decision later on.. but i told her that i do not have any feeling when i did not go.. i just felt normal.. however, i dun know whether this is wat i wan..

as i was walking back hm.. i keep thinking.. wat i really wan.. how come things turn this way.. how to let it go etc.. is it really possible to go back to the past? is it possible not to regret? from the way deva respone to my decision.. it shows that she regret her decision and she keeps telling me not to.. she keep asking me.. thought u like it alot and nw wat happen? how come suddenly made a decision like this..

she keeps telling me not too.. i told her.. why not she take my place and go for it.. she laughed.. haiz.. dun know lah.. today, also not very happy either.. hope to forget what heppen today.. so many things happen recently.. haiz..

moo told me that she asked the whole club to go for the WWW thing.. haiz.. i dun wan to go lor.. i hate to go out wif so many ppl.. i dun like the feeling of going out wif them.. not all.. i also asked moo whether what i did recently is it too much..

she say "as someone that knows u, i say slightly but you hv reasons bt to sum1 nt tt close, i think she/he will think it is unreasonable..." i kinda agree wif her.. me myself also think that wat i did recently is like kind of too much.. rmb wat happen after the chalet monday training.. that incident is still there.. cant forget bout it.. it is so hard to forget.. dun wish to rmb liao..

that all ba.. no mood to type liao..

A bad day?

2009-01-05T06:11:00.001-08:00

I just found out that my leg has not recovered from the last time I injured my leg.. haiz.. then when I walk to Cwp wif moo today, I injured my leg again.. haiz.. it hurts like hell lor.. dun know how to go for training on wednesday.. wish to skip.. haiz.. dun know lah.. just have no wish to go.. mayb can use this reason to let myself another day off from training.. and dun need to face them again..

Today, chat wif a friend.. she asked me not to think about it liao.. but i know it is hard.. it is hard to forget about it.. treat it as an event that has past.. mayb u guys can do it but i cant and nv will let it go..

somethings are easy to let go while others are not that easy.. u guys may see it as it is easy to let go but to me it is not.. dun know why still cant let it go.. i thought that the new year has come and i am able to forget about it.. and willnot rmb it any more.. haiz..

think blog till here ba.. kinda tired.. hope not to think that much liao ba..

4 Jan 2009

2009-01-04T02:57:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, skipped training and did something meaningful and fun.. it is to help the elderly paint their house.. Me, moo, wen juan, wan hua and a year 2 girl was in the same group.. the five of us paint a unit.. we finish painting the unit by 4 plus ba.. not too sure.. then we went down for some talk by the faci.. then we went hm..

we took a bus from there and went to the mrt station.. which was far.. then we saw something very interesting.. then we agree to go there another day.. will talk to them soon to see when we can go.. hehe..

then today, did nothing much.. just sleep till noon time.. had breakfast cum lunch then went to ntuc to buy dinner to cook.. then just watch the tv.. didn do anything.. hehe.. tml, got sch.. sian.. haiz.. dun feel like going back.. haiz..

think that all ba.. post pic another.. hehe.. keep pushing it back..

The last day of Year 2009!!

2008-12-31T04:52:00.000-08:00

Last day of the year.. haiz.. The year pass damn fast.. going to end the second semester soon.. and a 10 weeks hoilday for me to have fun and find work.. cause dad wants me to go work instead of staying at hm and do nothing.. haiz..

today, also did nothing much.. just paint my house door wif mum.. hehe.. then stay at hm the whole day and slack all the way.. tml, mayb mayb meeting friend ba.. not too sure.. later then message her ba..

oh ya, i also wan to buy my earphone and wallet.. wan to get a new bag too.. but for nw i need money.. haiz.. sian..

This year has been a busy year ba.. take o'level result, go to poly, make new friends etc.. and this hoilday going to end soon too.. hope that next year will be a better year ba..

thanks girl for being there when i need someone to talk too.. and i think i complain to much to u liao ba.. hehe.. anyway, thanks..

hope that next year will be as fun as this year and i can forget all the bad memories.. and dun wish to rmb liao.. that all.. post pic another.. got some qing and moo weird pic.. hehe.. wanna post..

29 Dec 2008

2008-12-29T05:28:00.000-08:00

Today, I have a very bad feeling.. when i went out of my house, i forgot to bring something.. then when i went down,m i saw a women fainted.. haiz.. then went to meet moo.. then my earpiece spoilt.. sian.. need to buy new one.. then when we are walking to the sport complex, i fell and sprain my ankle.. hiaz.. then went to the shooting ground which was behind the carpark.. when i was walking to the road, forgot to look where i was walking.. i sprain my ankle again.. at the same place.. haiz.. so suay..

then went hm around 11 plus, going to be 12 noon, i think.. walk wif moo and we parted half way.. then went out wif my mum to buy things at woodlands checkpoint there.. damn sian lor.. dun know what to do.. they do their shopping and i just follow.. then they wants to go cwp to buy things.. hehe.. i didn follow.. my leg was in pain so just stay at hm..

oh ya.. thanks nick.. for giving the chirstmas card.. in reply to the message.. i will try not to be so emo and i know that u guys are there and will find u if i have problem.. hehe..

mayb thinking too much is not a good thing.. hehe.. that all..

24 Dec 2008

2008-12-24T06:36:00.001-08:00

nothing to do so just blog.. kinda sian.. today, i was suppose to go ya hui place and play mahjong.. but didn.. cause too tired liao.. woke up at 12 plus today.. just sleep and sleep till mum wakes me up.. today, also didn do much.. just slack till nw..

havent been for training for quite some time.. just dun feel that good to go liao.. this few days, i feel that when i dun go training i dun feel that bad.. dun need to face them and just keep avoiding.. mayb it is a good thing ba.. dun need to think that much and just be happy and dun care?

for nw i dun know wat to do.. just go through day by day ba.. or face it? i dun know.. dun feel like facing it.. if i face it, nitemare will come.. haiz.. since that incident.. i dun feel like going for training liao.. nw another incident happen.. OMG.. feel like dying man.. haiz..

see how when the time goes.. i miss the days before this two incident happen.. nothing to think about and can enjoy myself.. am i able to let it go? i dun know.. but will try.. hiaz..

going to watch my show liao.. hehe.. post pics another day ba.. got lots of pics to post.. hehe

Feeling down..

2008-12-21T20:51:00.000-08:00

Avoid and avoid.. Is what I always do.. Mayb to me, it is a way to settle things? However, I hate to avoid but in the end I still avoid.. haiz.. I still feel bad over that thing.. but I dun know what to do.. eventhrough u say that u have forgiven me.. but I cant just forget about it at all.. How to treat as if nothing happen..

Mayb I should just let it be ba.. and not try to change anything.. I still feel weird.. Mayb it is best not to go back to the past and let it be as it is.. If I try to change, will it be the same as the past.. I dun think so ba..

Time.. need more time.. Mayb by the time, I forgot the matter.. will be the time, I disappear le ba.. Still not sure.. wat to do nw.. dun wish to quit but I still feel weird.. haiz.. hope that time will cancel the matter ba..

That all.. dun wish to talk liao.. somemore, today, didn go training.. another day for me to stop thinking liao.. hope that I can do it..

20 Dec 2008

2008-12-19T23:36:00.000-08:00

lots of things happen just this week.. the first week of the hoilday.. firstly, went for training on sat and so damn idiot.. haiz.. then went to vivo city the next day wif moo and qing.. it was damn boring.. then on monday went to buy things for the chalet.. on tuesday went for archery chalet.. went there wif jing, nick and jeremy.. kinda sian.. then slowly everyone come then have fun..

i do not wish to talk about the chalet things liao.. think till here ba.. just came back from vivo city.. went there wif moo.. kinda sian.. then we walk around vivo city.. and play wif water.. hehe.. then also chat wif her.. and ask for her suggestion on something..

i asked her whether she will be angry or lonely if we leave the club.. moo say yes.. this has become my consideration on what to do next.. so scared that my decision will affect lots of ppl.. like what happen during the chalet.. hate it man..

that all ba.. so damn tired liao.. so many things happen.. think i should just forget about everything.. and just give it all up ba.. how i wish this never happen.. how i wish everythings go back to how it was in the past..

After so much thinking, i have decided to take a break.. will go training but will not talk to anyone.. after training, go home and will not walk wif them to cwp anymore.. after puting down the bow and stuff, just walk away and not stay there.. I think I am able to give up everything liao.. Know that it is hard but will do it.. hope that everything will go back to how it was, mayb by that time, i will not choose to leave..

15 Dec 2008

2008-12-14T17:32:00.000-08:00

Woke up at 7 plus.. cause brother wake me up.. haiz.. he keeps crying.. then just go and make him sleep again.. mum is tired.. then yesterday, dad just fly off to perth.. hehe.. he always go oversea for his work.. hiaz.. then nw using the com.. thought dad will be online.. haiz.. nope.. think his com dun have the msn ba.. hehe.. he was suppose to use brother account to chat wif us..

later going to shop for chalet food.. just nw i found out that the bbq pit is portable one.. must go rent from the shop.. haiz.. dun know sia.. think just make so wif it ba.. haiz.. hope that tml will be fun.. hehe.. i mean real fun.. hehe..

will post the blog wif the chalet pictures once the chalet is over and i got the pictures..hehe.. for nw i just blog the pictures we took yesterday at vivo city.. hehe.. i cant bluetooth the pictures into my labby.. think tml or another day ba.. haiz..

tml, going to chalet, gone for 3 days 2 nite.. hope that it will be fun.. went to buy food wif archery ppl.. kinda sian.. cause like just buy the things then have lunch then went hm to put the things.. then that the end of the day.. i have a feeling that my hp bill will go over this month.. last month the bill also go over the expected one.. haiz..

that all.. will try to update wif pictures asap.. once the chalet is over.. more pictures will be up.. hehe.. I have make up my mind liao.. I think I will do it.. dun know why but I just feel that I will do it.. eventhrough jing say dun.. I dun have the feeling of staying liao.. cant do it anymore.. that the end liao ba? haiz.. see how ba..

13 Dec 2008

2008-12-13T04:24:00.000-08:00

Today, went for training.. in actual fact, i dun have the mood to shoot at all.. dun know why.. just cant concentrate at all.. dun even know wat am i doing.. haiz.. winnie help me but i didn listen to wat she say, i just hear and let it out.. one ear in then the other out.. hiaz. i dun know wat to do liao.. then i nearly cry during training.. dun even know wat to do.. i know that i am there but i am thinking about other things..

then went off at 4pmw if jing.. just wanna get my mind out of archery.. wish to take a long break but i know i cant.. dun know how to tell them.. hiaz.. i find it hard to control my emotion liao lor.. no matter, wat i do, i will cry.. haiz.. dun know sia.. can someone tell me?

i have a feeling that istill cant let go of the feeling of the competition.. wat happen then.. i think that i have not let it go at all.. and nw still trying to forget.. i dun know why.. but it is hard to do so.. how to let go? how to forgot? i'm not too sure.. i have never try to forgot and let go of somethings.. haiz..

that all ba.. dun wish to contiune liao.. later i cant control my emotion liao..

11 dec 2008

2008-12-11T04:03:00.000-08:00

I read her blog.. I feel that we do not understand each other at all.. Sometime when we are together I dun even know what she is thinking lor.. sometime, I really wonder whether we understand each other anot? whether are we friends?

Sometime I really wonder whether we are friends anot.. Haiz.. I really enjoy her company and stuff but I feel that I always get the blame and stuff lor.. It is the same as in the past lor.. I always get the blame whenever everything goes wrong.. haiz.. I dun know lor..

Recently, I made one decision.. I feel that I will not regrate at all ba.. I think that this decision that I made is the onli one that I will not regrate at all.. I find life damn tiring liao.. How I wish to give it all up nw.. RITE NW.. haiz..

think that all nw ba.. dun feel like writing anything liao.. haiz..

9 Dec 2008

2008-12-09T04:50:00.000-08:00

Turn 17 today.. hehe.. quite happy ba.. hehe.. ^_^.. hehe.. Meet moo and deva in the morning.. hehe.. but kinda sian.. went to class to early liao.. hehe.. then si yun wish me happy bday.. hehe.. then receive cha and dad message.. hehe.. they wish me too.. hehe.. my uncle too.. hehe.. then meet qing to go for a thing.. sian lor.. the talk.. haiz.. luckily went back to class on time.. cause havent finish my work.. today, we did a TV show.. it was so fun.. hehe.. then ragish also wish me.. oh ya.. joy and jill also has the same bday as me.. hehe.. so fun.. then meet moo and qing to eat chicken chunks.. hehe.. long time didn eat wif qing liao.. cause.. dun wan to say.. hehe.. then she also wish me.. thought she forgot.. hehe.. that all ba.. then went to CWP to meet sis.. she brough me bday present too.. so nice of her.. hehe..

then went hm for dinner.. mum cooks lots of food.. hehe.. got crabs, clam, chicken, prawn and etc.. hehe.. she went to the market cause i wan to eat clam.. hehe.. love her.. mucks.. hehe.. then invite grandparent over for dinner.. but grandma leg pain cant come.. >_<.. sian.. nv mind.. another day ba.. post some pic i took.. but forgot to take my dinner pic.. hiaz..

this is the paper that moo and deva wrote and paste on the paper bag.. hehe.. didn saw it until i reach class.. >_<

this is the gift in the box.. dun know why is it a "X".. forgot to ask.. blur sia.. hehe.. cute?

this is another gift that they gave me.. nice..?

but i still dun know why they gave me this two gift.. moo say is best not to know.. haiz.. -_-

this is the gift that my sis gave me.. i wanna buy this album.. but no money.. hehe.. thanks sis.. mucks.. ^_^

that the end.. forgot to take pic of the foods mum cook.. hehe.. ^_^.. thanks for the gift and wishes.. mucks.. hehe.. oh ya, meeting cha during chistmas eve.. hehe.. can have fun liao.. hehe.. post another day ba..

22 Nov 2008

2008-11-22T02:59:00.000-08:00

Today, didn go.. i mean skip one day of training.. yesterday, told winnie that i not going for training.. then she ask me what happen.. haiz.. then she start asking me question and ... just answer her.. i dun know why, i just tell her but not everything.. >_<

hiaz.. dun wanna think liao.. she talk for so long.. i still didn change my mind of not going.. the reason that i dun wan to go is because of wat happen and another one is that i wan to rest.. how i wish to sleep forever and nv wake up.. in this manner i will not have any more problem and do not need to think that much.. hiaz..

lifes are like that.. so many things to think about so many things to do.. sian.. then went to find hui ping.. hehe.. i forgot that i am meeting her during the nite.. sian.. i chat wif winnie till i forgot about meeting her.. haiz.. so sori.. >_<

how i wish to sleep forever and ever.. >_<.. just feel sian so i blog.. nothing to do mah.. didn go training.. sian..hehe.. thanks winnie for helping me ba.. but i am still not sure what i should do..>_<

wanna to sleep forever and nv wake up liao.. giving up? or contiune? tell me ba..

21 Nov 2008

2008-11-20T16:33:00.000-08:00

nw in class.. so sian.. onli got me and si yun.. hehe.. then decided to blog.. dun know why feeling really down today and dun wish to meet anyone.. i message moo in the morning.. she was the two idiot.. so i didn meet them.. i feel that mayb we should stop meeting in the morning ba.. i dun know why.. i told moo that i think that we should not meet in the morning liao.. she didn reply.. i agree wif si yun.. not to go sch wif ppl in the morning.. hehe.. cause in the morning, my mood can be very very de bad.. i dun know why.. recently my mood is so bad till me myself also hate it.. hiaz..>_<

she say that i must say out my feelings and she is not a mind reader.. i also know.. but how to say.. i feel that we are not close anymore and the friendship is going to end soon ba? mayb that me.. once we are not close, then that it.. the end.. i dun know how to say out my feelings ba.. this is me.. i hate to tell ppl how i feel.. so most friendship have a full stop due to this.. she wans me to share but is she going to be there to listen.. i dun think so ba..

mayb it will end.. just like that.. and a full stop is there liao.. >_<.. i feel that my post a bit weird.. think it is due to my bad mood ba.. hehe.. wen hua just came to class.. nw the class onli has three ppl.. hehe.. sian.. dun feel like typing liao.. think post another day ba.. and polite pics update another day.. i feel that i keep saying another day but dun know when is the day.. hehe

20 Nov 2008

2008-11-20T04:49:00.000-08:00

recently, i can get angry very easily.. just like that.. like on monday.. just one small thing and i get angry just like that.. and today when i walk to cwp wif moo and qing, and i dun know why.. i just walk on my own and my i walk very fast.. in the end, we went different way.. i dun know why.. it just happen like that.. just like that.. hiaz..

recently, i also feel that our friendship will end soon.. very soon.. i also feel very left out wif them liao.. no longer like last time.. like the way we went out together and stay back after sch and have fun.. and do RJ together.. it is gone liao..

i also feel that we do not have common topic anymore and i wish to take a break from it.. should i? whenever, we walked to sch together, i find that there's nothing to say and that all.. just walk to sch like that.. it is like we are just stranger walking to the same place.. that all..

should we end this friendship or contiune? i dun know wat to say liao.. just leave it to fate? or end the pain nw? @_@.. wat to do? no mood to post pic.. another day ba.. that all.. should i really end it just like that or find ways to contiune this friendship?

17 Nov 2008

2008-11-17T03:10:00.000-08:00

yesterday, went for TKO.. then we shoot and we win NP.. but we lose to NYP and ITE.. in the end we didn win anything.. kinda regret.. i dun know why but i am feeling better nw.. hehe.. my dad say nv mind.. can do better next year.. after the competition.. my feeling was not that well and then just walk off like that.. we all took the same train but i wan to be alone so when i got down at JE, i didn say "bye" to them and just walk off.. haiz.. then on the train towards woodlands i also just walk off and went to another side.. didn go wif jing and farhan.. i dun know why.. but i wan to be alone.. i do not wan ppl to be around me sia..

i think not many ppl will understand it ba.. haiz..

then went to sch today.. tired, sian plus no mood.. dun know how i get through the day.. jia wei, ask how was yesterday competition.. wth.. my mood was aready not that good due to yesterday and this morning and he ask me.. OMG.. when i talk, i almost cry lor.. idiot lor.. haiz.. then during second break, he pass me the thumbdrive and he say something again.. wth lor.. haiz..

then went hm after lesson.. didn meet anyone.. also dun feel like meeting.. even if meet also nothing to say.. the end.. haiz.. >_< recently, also no mood due to competition.. still angry myself..

that all ba.. >_<.. tired liao.. pic another day then upload ba..